Defeat & the feeling of losing

Unfortunately, my team and I didn't come out tops, we were second. It was a close fight, too close, and on the line, you might as well say we lost by a coin toss. But there were many underlying factors then I'm not going to mention. In fact I'm going to write about the feeling of losing.

There are a number of ocassions when I felt this way, so here it goes:

1. During Secondary 3, my NCC Specialist Course, I wasn't the top 10 trainee, was 11th!
2. During Secondary 4, didn't get my Master Seargent Rank in NCC.
3. During my internship, I got 3/5 for my performance as an intern in the front office department.
4. During Basic Military Training, didn't get my platoon best though I worked my ass off.
5. During OCS, the fact that my commanders couldn't see past the wayang people.
6. During University, didn't win the Hotel Technology Competition Award.

However, as time passed by, I've overcome those disappointments with other accomplishments.

1. I became a NCC unit drill instructor, or Staff Seargent.
2. Though I was not a Master Seargent, I receive an outstanding commendation for my service NCC.
3. I was the Singapore Receptionist of the Year 2005.
4. I got a Gold for my IPPT in OCS.
5. I was well respected by my peers and they saw me as a leader very differently from my commanders.
6. Who knows? But based on the trends, it seems like something good is going to happen.

So yeah, I'm disappointed at the momemnt, but will be fine tomorrow! Just need to spend some time with my good friends Jack Daniels and Coca Cola. It's gonna be a great night...